Why I can't stop?

I am the loser,
Cannot lose weight faster,
What have I done?
I keeping on eating,
I make myself feeling sick.

I felt hilarious,
because all the food I ate is delicious,
My weight easy to gain but hard to lose,
I feel pain but still having my chocolate mousse.

I am uncomfortable with myself,
Because I felt I cannot be save,
I see the peanut butter on the shelf,
I grab my spoon and peanut butter,
Scoop in a jar and crying while eating.